I keep making the error of doing anything or saying anything. the vampires have made it loud and clear: I will not be listened to and my rights will not be enforced. they will use their numerousness and their everywhereness and their identicalness against me and they will not relent. I will not be allowed to go anywhere and I will not be allowed to do anything. when I will do nothing they will pounce upon me until I must do something, and when I do something they will make sure I do not succeed and understand that I am not allowed to do anything. I will work, but I will have no money. I will learn my rights, but I will not have rights. I will fight, but I will be outnumbered. I will barricade my doors, but I will be pursued. I will pay attention, so I can be raped. I'll stop my senses, and I will be clubbed. I will be shunned. nothing I say will be listened to. but if there's something to exploit, or an experience of self doubt, there will be a horde of them ready to pounce on me and sink its fangs.