Saturday, April 17, 2010
cops are just boids. yes, but boids are cops. and their hollowness is not their least weapon. they all do the same things at the same time, but they have no awareness of it. and they all talk about the same society, which is not this society. anything you do, they’ll become involved and try to destroy. they are made to show the truth, but they would be the ones to persecute you for saying the truth.
in a fascist collectivism, submission is achieved not only by means of an iron fist, but also through pressure to conform to the group. the mental-health system is a great merging of the two. its very aim is submission to the group, as it seeks to cure those who are singled out as being different. for this purpose, it uses force, confinement, drugging, and various forms of coercion and abuse. but this is not needed if the community exerts enough pressure on the individual to submit to its standards of normality.
when the herd is the police, being rejected by the herd amounts to more than just hurt feelings. in fascist regimes it’s just as much the role of the herd to pressure you into conformity as it is that of the state. the mental-health system is the epitome of this type of fascism. distancing yourself from the herd becomes something that’s persecutable by the herd as well as the system. if the views you express are not those of the collective, the herd can become ‘concerned’ about you. when the herd becomes ‘concerned’, that’s when they are willing to overlook your rights, such as your right not to belong to the herd.
Friday, April 16, 2010
http://1984policestate.blogspot.com/
Writings about The 1984 Police State. The primary methods of such a police state are psychological which in a non-physical setting can be taken to any extreme. the aim is the exploitation of the individual. The individual designated for exploitation is myself. Those around me are enforcers of The 1984 Police State and are there to keep me in line for no other purpose than keeping me in line. They utilize every facet of society against me and they are all impostors. They define what is sane and what is not sane, and have the power to lock me up. They employ the population for demoralization and for breaking me down and keeping me in line, always at specific times and always with ulterior motives. If I stand up to any one of them, everyone else will immediately rush to their defense, not verbally but as bodies at the defense of the police state and to quickly beat down and coerce to submission. They can exhibit a certain sanity within a certain context, but it’s just not the right context and is not consistent with what’s happening around and not consistent with their methods of subjecting me to it, and however many of them can say the same things, it means nothing when they are all the same and all there for the same reasons, and the world of which they speak is just not this one.
The vast majority of the things I am subjected to are merely suggested, and yet suggested in very obvious ways. It’s arranged in a very fucked up way, because they ensure that within their context I seem to be suggesting things that I explicitly say I don’t suggest, while in my context they suggest things that explicitly they’ll tell me they don’t suggest. It camouflages what’s true and what’s not.
The latest clampdown was focused exactly on things I’d already written about: my sanity, my ‘disease’ (I try to demonstrate that my usage of the word disease is more accurate), my breaches from their ‘common-sense’, media literacy/ illiteracy etc. Next it will be something else. As said, the vast majority of it is mere suggestion, and yet it’s always timed exactly to beat me to conformity the instant I step out of line. There are many mundane situations that can be unpleasant or torturous, but in the 1984 police state these are used exactly for purposes of torture and beating to submission.
http://shahargoldpolicestate.blogspot.com/2010/04/as-for-evidence.html
Evidence that I am being shunned. Nothing I write is ever challenged verbally, but only met with corresponding punishments and penalties by the population. Moreover, while there seems to be a refusal to challenge anything I write verbally, there will not ever be any way to avoid penalties and punishments when the infliction of these is required.
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Writings about The 1984 Police State. The primary methods of such a police state are psychological which in a non-physical setting can be taken to any extreme. the aim is the exploitation of the individual. The individual designated for exploitation is myself. Those around me are enforcers of The 1984 Police State and are there to keep me in line for no other purpose than keeping me in line. They utilize every facet of society against me and they are all impostors. They define what is sane and what is not sane, and have the power to lock me up. They employ the population for demoralization and for breaking me down and keeping me in line, always at specific times and always with ulterior motives. If I stand up to any one of them, everyone else will immediately rush to their defense, not verbally but as bodies at the defense of the police state and to quickly beat down and coerce to submission. They can exhibit a certain sanity within a certain context, but it’s just not the right context and is not consistent with what’s happening around and not consistent with their methods of subjecting me to it, and however many of them can say the same things, it means nothing when they are all the same and all there for the same reasons, and the world of which they speak is just not this one.
The vast majority of the things I am subjected to are merely suggested, and yet suggested in very obvious ways. It’s arranged in a very fucked up way, because they ensure that within their context I seem to be suggesting things that I explicitly say I don’t suggest, while in my context they suggest things that explicitly they’ll tell me they don’t suggest. It camouflages what’s true and what’s not.
The latest clampdown was focused exactly on things I’d already written about: my sanity, my ‘disease’ (I try to demonstrate that my usage of the word disease is more accurate), my breaches from their ‘common-sense’, media literacy/ illiteracy etc. Next it will be something else. As said, the vast majority of it is mere suggestion, and yet it’s always timed exactly to beat me to conformity the instant I step out of line. There are many mundane situations that can be unpleasant or torturous, but in the 1984 police state these are used exactly for purposes of torture and beating to submission.
http://shahargoldpolicestate.blogspot.com/2010/04/as-for-evidence.html
Evidence that I am being shunned. Nothing I write is ever challenged verbally, but only met with corresponding punishments and penalties by the population. Moreover, while there seems to be a refusal to challenge anything I write verbally, there will not ever be any way to avoid penalties and punishments when the infliction of these is required.
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Excerpt from Machine Hell
The shit has been in full force for about 9 years, according to the measure of time available. Sure enough, it started the way phases always start: by some deception they’ll convince you that you have some special ability, some special instinct, have been chosen in some way, or in one way or another have suddenly aroused the intense interest of very large masses. This will usually come at times when your life couldn’t seem to get any worse, or you have been denying the nature of your surroundings in your thoughts, and so you’ll be more likely to buy into it. If you do buy into it, instantaneously these great masses begin to systematically take away your freedoms one after another, and it always ends up in total shit and with these great masses just beating you to the ground and teaming up against you and telling you what you are and are not allowed to do in regard to the most intimate details of your life. If you don’t buy into it, they’ll just use more force and will end up beating you to the ground and taking away your freedoms one after another by means of more force. This force can come in the form of intense mind rape, psychological punishments, punishments of the senses, conditioning and endless harassment, humiliation, demoralization, simultaneous rejection by very large masses, simultaneous ridicule by very large masses, rejection precisely by anything you develop any sort of attachment to, coercive involvement by masses in everything you do and everything you think, betrayal by anyone that you have any expectation from or that you are under the illusion that they care about you, obliging you to all kinds of tedious chores, coercive and forceful deceptions combined with the knowledge of the consequences of not resisting these deceptions in very overt ways, extreme self-consciousness due to your thoughts being constantly policed and met with punishments, exploitation of your conscience, exploitation of your fears, exploitation of your trust, subjection by masses to all kinds of moralities, proprieties, and standards of every sort which have nothing to do with the world in which you live, the cold indifference and denial by everyone of everything happening in your life, the killing of hope, the killing of spirit, and the killing of every possible freedom. Or it can come in physical forms: punishments of the body by electric shocks, the infliction of other bodily agonies, and of course forcible confinement, the police, and being beat up.
The entire thing: http://1984policestate.blogspot.com/2010/04/police-machine.html
Learn to read. No one is obliged to agree with anything I say, but it’s pretty fucking hard, at this point, not to understand what I’m saying and not to understand that I am perfectly aware of how it would sound within the imposed context of some not absurd world. I operate on knowledge of the world around me. Those around me operate on ideology.
The shit has been in full force for about 9 years, according to the measure of time available. Sure enough, it started the way phases always start: by some deception they’ll convince you that you have some special ability, some special instinct, have been chosen in some way, or in one way or another have suddenly aroused the intense interest of very large masses. This will usually come at times when your life couldn’t seem to get any worse, or you have been denying the nature of your surroundings in your thoughts, and so you’ll be more likely to buy into it. If you do buy into it, instantaneously these great masses begin to systematically take away your freedoms one after another, and it always ends up in total shit and with these great masses just beating you to the ground and teaming up against you and telling you what you are and are not allowed to do in regard to the most intimate details of your life. If you don’t buy into it, they’ll just use more force and will end up beating you to the ground and taking away your freedoms one after another by means of more force. This force can come in the form of intense mind rape, psychological punishments, punishments of the senses, conditioning and endless harassment, humiliation, demoralization, simultaneous rejection by very large masses, simultaneous ridicule by very large masses, rejection precisely by anything you develop any sort of attachment to, coercive involvement by masses in everything you do and everything you think, betrayal by anyone that you have any expectation from or that you are under the illusion that they care about you, obliging you to all kinds of tedious chores, coercive and forceful deceptions combined with the knowledge of the consequences of not resisting these deceptions in very overt ways, extreme self-consciousness due to your thoughts being constantly policed and met with punishments, exploitation of your conscience, exploitation of your fears, exploitation of your trust, subjection by masses to all kinds of moralities, proprieties, and standards of every sort which have nothing to do with the world in which you live, the cold indifference and denial by everyone of everything happening in your life, the killing of hope, the killing of spirit, and the killing of every possible freedom. Or it can come in physical forms: punishments of the body by electric shocks, the infliction of other bodily agonies, and of course forcible confinement, the police, and being beat up.
The entire thing: http://1984policestate.blogspot.com/2010/04/police-machine.html
Learn to read. No one is obliged to agree with anything I say, but it’s pretty fucking hard, at this point, not to understand what I’m saying and not to understand that I am perfectly aware of how it would sound within the imposed context of some not absurd world. I operate on knowledge of the world around me. Those around me operate on ideology.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Collective Targeting in The 1984 Prison Colony
They tell contradictory truths, and then expect you to live by these contradictory truths. They are non-entities, and you have to be coerced to live under the tyranny of non-entities, despite being a living thing. They can shift their entire being to accommodate any present requirements of exploitation, and each and every one of the very many of them is just there for purposes of exploitation, while you experience continuity of time and have a certain amount of memory of things prior to the present moment, and yet must live under the tyranny of the insane non-humans that run society and ensure never to allow you to get anywhere. At any moment any one of them can coerce you to live by any nonsensical, contradictory, and incongruent truth, and use their positions of authority to do so.
They tell contradictory truths, and then expect you to live by these contradictory truths. They are non-entities, and you have to be coerced to live under the tyranny of non-entities, despite being a living thing. They can shift their entire being to accommodate any present requirements of exploitation, and each and every one of the very many of them is just there for purposes of exploitation, while you experience continuity of time and have a certain amount of memory of things prior to the present moment, and yet must live under the tyranny of the insane non-humans that run society and ensure never to allow you to get anywhere. At any moment any one of them can coerce you to live by any nonsensical, contradictory, and incongruent truth, and use their positions of authority to do so.
when the collective seals itself around your every move and every breath, anything you do is treated as a tremendous threat to the collective. they can accuse you of instigating hostility if you exist simultaneous to them attaching themselves to everything you do. and when everywhere you go everyone is the same and all acting like they know you and in correspondence or retribution to details of your life and your thoughts, no freedom is possible. if you don’t want to be accused of ‘preying’ on the collective (which is in fact preying on you), you mustn’t express any views that differ too greatly from the view of the collective, or rather express these only when the timing is right for the collective, because you also don’t want to give the collective the impression that it has taken away your rights and your freedoms, because that’s just another method of preying on the collective.
I’m subjected to moralities of every sort. In fact, whatever can best cripple things in my life at any given time. Many of these seem to be built on the presupposition that there is someone out there to whom I can extend myself in some way and which is supposed to justify something. But every single one of them is just another wall, and there is nothing other than walls and more walls, and all the walls are the same as all the other walls. I am a living thing, and yet they are just walls. and that’s the situation, and if I don’t conduct myself towards them as walls, it’s because I’m forced to acknowledge them as people, and so they are walls that force me to acknowledge them as people.
Anything I do, however intimate, they'll attach themselves to in large numbers and do the same in personalized ways against me in these large numbers, and this is considered reasonable and fair.
Anything I do, however intimate, they'll attach themselves to in large numbers and do the same in personalized ways against me in these large numbers, and this is considered reasonable and fair.
They attach themselves coercively to everything I do and avenge themselves on me in large numbers for everything I do. They can tell any lie with a straight face and any required pretense no matter how obvious the lie and anything required is enforced by their human semblance. Then they expect me to define myself in relation to things that are defined in correspondence to my life.
They are limited by absolutely no aspects of a self, and so can take exploitation to any extreme and operate by no other logic than that of exploitation. What’s usually exploited is precisely my existential attributes, while they are advantaged by their lacking of such, and then do it precisely in the names of these.
They keep me in everlasting isolation, and being with them is just more prison and more isolation. Every extreme of nothing is just used for more policing. They prey on my doubts, my trust, my feelings, and they use every effect of the relentless targeting for more targeting. They even use it against me that my expectations from them have to be so extremely low. Anything they perfectly epitomize is stretched over any diametrical context, while they are these points of nothing with lots of guns and lots of numbers to whom I must bow and whom I must accept as an ugly fact that just has to be there.
They are fixated in masses on me, while not acknowledging me as any sort of public or authority figure or personality, and use this to restrict all the freedoms I am told I have and which I should have.
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Whenever anything in my life begins to go in any direction, immediately they ensure to bring it back to the path of targeting and policing me as a society and never allowing anything to change paths or to go anywhere. Immediately I will be pursued by anyone that is able to hold any out of context grudge against me for anything, and immediately any necessary context will be brought about, and immediately the story-lines will be made to accommodate the requirement to mark me for something or other and police me as a mob. I will not be permitted any way to avoid this and it will occur with perfect synchronicity.
Everywhere I go I am targeted no matter what. When going anywhere I’ve never been to before, and when encountering anyone I’ve never seen before, I will be targeted according to my relationship with the collective. My relationship with the collective is based on spying on every detail of my life, and I will be policed by this relationship no matter where I go, and will be treated according to that relationship by anyone I had never seen before and anywhere I go that I had never been before. However, if anyone is able to hold any context against me that can work more effectively for purposes of targeting, and certainly if there is any context wherein anyone is able to hold against me something that I had done within some other context and by which they can better justify treating me in the required ways, they will just switch to that context. They constantly just switch to whatever context allows them to take exploitation to the greatest extreme.
I am subjected to overly excessive standards of fairness and equality to them, while they operate against me as a collective. It is necessitated by this setup that I always be the target no matter what, and I am given no space to exist without giving them more reason to target me, which they are always eager to do. Moreover, everywhere I go everyone seems to know me and seems to know every detail of my life, while I’d never seen the vast majority of them. I have to walk around like this everywhere, and I can never know which of them will feel eager to attack me for some detail of my life. This is not excessively fair to me. And it always so happens to be me that’s not permitted any freedoms.
They are limited by absolutely no aspects of a self, and so can take exploitation to any extreme and operate by no other logic than that of exploitation. What’s usually exploited is precisely my existential attributes, while they are advantaged by their lacking of such, and then do it precisely in the names of these.
They keep me in everlasting isolation, and being with them is just more prison and more isolation. Every extreme of nothing is just used for more policing. They prey on my doubts, my trust, my feelings, and they use every effect of the relentless targeting for more targeting. They even use it against me that my expectations from them have to be so extremely low. Anything they perfectly epitomize is stretched over any diametrical context, while they are these points of nothing with lots of guns and lots of numbers to whom I must bow and whom I must accept as an ugly fact that just has to be there.
They are fixated in masses on me, while not acknowledging me as any sort of public or authority figure or personality, and use this to restrict all the freedoms I am told I have and which I should have.
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Whenever anything in my life begins to go in any direction, immediately they ensure to bring it back to the path of targeting and policing me as a society and never allowing anything to change paths or to go anywhere. Immediately I will be pursued by anyone that is able to hold any out of context grudge against me for anything, and immediately any necessary context will be brought about, and immediately the story-lines will be made to accommodate the requirement to mark me for something or other and police me as a mob. I will not be permitted any way to avoid this and it will occur with perfect synchronicity.
Everywhere I go I am targeted no matter what. When going anywhere I’ve never been to before, and when encountering anyone I’ve never seen before, I will be targeted according to my relationship with the collective. My relationship with the collective is based on spying on every detail of my life, and I will be policed by this relationship no matter where I go, and will be treated according to that relationship by anyone I had never seen before and anywhere I go that I had never been before. However, if anyone is able to hold any context against me that can work more effectively for purposes of targeting, and certainly if there is any context wherein anyone is able to hold against me something that I had done within some other context and by which they can better justify treating me in the required ways, they will just switch to that context. They constantly just switch to whatever context allows them to take exploitation to the greatest extreme.
I am subjected to overly excessive standards of fairness and equality to them, while they operate against me as a collective. It is necessitated by this setup that I always be the target no matter what, and I am given no space to exist without giving them more reason to target me, which they are always eager to do. Moreover, everywhere I go everyone seems to know me and seems to know every detail of my life, while I’d never seen the vast majority of them. I have to walk around like this everywhere, and I can never know which of them will feel eager to attack me for some detail of my life. This is not excessively fair to me. And it always so happens to be me that’s not permitted any freedoms.
They’ll involve themselves very intimately in your life for very long periods of time until you have developed some relationship with them and a familiarity and understanding on which you are able to operate as a living thing. although this is never anything other than informal, you develop some amount of trust based on the relationship itself. the nazis however only then use the fact that they can deny anything that's not documented, and suddenly none of it has taken place, as far as their very large part in it is acknowledged, and your reactions to them are contextualized according to what they happen to feel like calling themselves today. suddenly nothing that happened is acknowledged as having taken place, the only thing left is their cold steel, and your reactions to the relationship which they themselves have insisted on for very long periods of time are used by the Nazis to further target you. as I know from the past they can even lock you up for your part in the informal relationship with them, when their part is suddenly denied and they decide to lock you up for it.
Last time when all doors were closing and all freedoms disappearing there was just a massive psychological crackdown on me by society to fulfill the requirement of further taking away my freedoms whenever my freedoms have been taken away to too much of an extreme (and so going by precedents I have no reason to assume that when all doors seal themselves shut and society is cracking down on you for ever more intimate details of your life, it necessarily means that they are preparing themselves to take this all the way and reduce you to ash once again by means of forcible hospitalization, as these same processes are able to just occur within society). Now I have ever more frequent incidents in public places where I’m given special treatment, of being taken advantage of in situations of being outnumbered, of details of my life unable to go without exploitation, etc. Whenever these things become more frequent, society becomes more of a prison. When large masses become ever more closely fixated on your every move, every detail of your life is ever more asphyxiated and every instance of you not doing what they want you to do is met with very many wanting to inflict retributions on you. In their context, there are famous people, to whom such masses can oblige and which such masses can treat as their possession, because they had given them lots of money in exchange for something. Not everyone with lots of money is designated for exploitation by masses in these ways, but those designated will be obliged on those rare occasions when the masses have to justify themselves at all. This is their context, and the society in which they’ll tell me I’m living, and the way I would perceive such a society.
In my life, mob justice is used to police me constantly. I’m not recognized as being famous, and everything I try to do for a living is just completely shunned. They enslave me and force me to devote my every moment to them, and the more evidence there is of this the more evident becomes their indifference and they just become more and more well attuned to details of my life that require policing the more there is for them to overlook regarding my treatment by society. It’s becoming increasingly rare for me to walk into any public place and not have some very unpleasant incident and not be given special treatment and not encounter personal retributions for details of my life and not have physical situations of being outnumbered exploited. Walking on the street is increasingly treated as a privilege and not a right, and is dependent on my relationship with those spying on my life. In interactions with them it’s becoming more and more rare to avoid unpleasant incidents and their mode of operation of picking on me and not relenting until I respond and taking advantage of every instance of me attempting to deal with them peacefully, denying it and switching context the instant I respond, and then targeting me for my response by whatever context they suddenly switch to, which allows me very little space to exist in their presence.
They operate against me as a collective. If I have problems with one, I will suffer retributions by another, and they don’t need to be connected to each other or to know each other, but every one of them will automatically take the side of every other when the one being collectively targeted has a problem with any of them. The logic of one being mistreated is to address the instance of being mistreated, while the logic of one being collectively targeted is to be fair to or cautious of anyone by whom they hadn’t been mistreated during any instance of being mistreated.
They reject you endlessly so they can force you to deal with them, they force you to deal with them so they can take any opportunity to reject you, they pick on you and do not relent so they can target you for your reaction the instant you react, they create massive problems for you so you’ll be forced to stand up to them, and they destroy your ability to stand up to them so they can return to creating the massive problems they were creating in the first place that forced you to stand up to them. They exercise every double standard against you and are set on targeting you everywhere you go, and then anything you want you have to go through them to get, and they constantly ensure this by going out of their way not to allow anything in your life to succeed.
And so, now that things are more restricted than they have been in quite a while and I am pressed from every direction and have come to learn that any standing up to anything only opens the door for further targeting by large masses because they are just so indifferent and such Nazis, and I’m simply not permitted to do anything and these pieces of shit just police my every move as a society and allow fewer and fewer places where I can be, while as a result I must feel ever more gratefulness for any instance of me being permitted to get from one point to another without suffering some harsh consequence, while I don’t want to concern myself with rights all the time and yet the instant I let down my guard in any way large masses immediately lunge for every right they are able to take from me, I am reminded of the logic by which they operate: if they have taken away too many of your freedoms, it means that they have now gotten an increased taste for taking away your freedoms. And I have to constantly think like someone that’s being tyrannized over by a relentless mob, because I am such someone, and every so often it’s just that time again when the fist of the mob has to come crashing down.
I’m also expected to define myself according to their methods, which means that if they treat my writings as instructions and nothing else, there is no sense in writing, and if I stand up to anyone that’s picking on me they’ll just wait for the first opportunity when they can take this out of context and use this to cut down anything that ever goes well in my life. This means that I am simply not permitted to stand up to a society that’s targeting me, and any standing up to them can only have the effect of being used against me and further policing me and absolutely nothing else. As a living thing I find it impossible to live by this logic.
In my life, mob justice is used to police me constantly. I’m not recognized as being famous, and everything I try to do for a living is just completely shunned. They enslave me and force me to devote my every moment to them, and the more evidence there is of this the more evident becomes their indifference and they just become more and more well attuned to details of my life that require policing the more there is for them to overlook regarding my treatment by society. It’s becoming increasingly rare for me to walk into any public place and not have some very unpleasant incident and not be given special treatment and not encounter personal retributions for details of my life and not have physical situations of being outnumbered exploited. Walking on the street is increasingly treated as a privilege and not a right, and is dependent on my relationship with those spying on my life. In interactions with them it’s becoming more and more rare to avoid unpleasant incidents and their mode of operation of picking on me and not relenting until I respond and taking advantage of every instance of me attempting to deal with them peacefully, denying it and switching context the instant I respond, and then targeting me for my response by whatever context they suddenly switch to, which allows me very little space to exist in their presence.
They operate against me as a collective. If I have problems with one, I will suffer retributions by another, and they don’t need to be connected to each other or to know each other, but every one of them will automatically take the side of every other when the one being collectively targeted has a problem with any of them. The logic of one being mistreated is to address the instance of being mistreated, while the logic of one being collectively targeted is to be fair to or cautious of anyone by whom they hadn’t been mistreated during any instance of being mistreated.
They reject you endlessly so they can force you to deal with them, they force you to deal with them so they can take any opportunity to reject you, they pick on you and do not relent so they can target you for your reaction the instant you react, they create massive problems for you so you’ll be forced to stand up to them, and they destroy your ability to stand up to them so they can return to creating the massive problems they were creating in the first place that forced you to stand up to them. They exercise every double standard against you and are set on targeting you everywhere you go, and then anything you want you have to go through them to get, and they constantly ensure this by going out of their way not to allow anything in your life to succeed.
And so, now that things are more restricted than they have been in quite a while and I am pressed from every direction and have come to learn that any standing up to anything only opens the door for further targeting by large masses because they are just so indifferent and such Nazis, and I’m simply not permitted to do anything and these pieces of shit just police my every move as a society and allow fewer and fewer places where I can be, while as a result I must feel ever more gratefulness for any instance of me being permitted to get from one point to another without suffering some harsh consequence, while I don’t want to concern myself with rights all the time and yet the instant I let down my guard in any way large masses immediately lunge for every right they are able to take from me, I am reminded of the logic by which they operate: if they have taken away too many of your freedoms, it means that they have now gotten an increased taste for taking away your freedoms. And I have to constantly think like someone that’s being tyrannized over by a relentless mob, because I am such someone, and every so often it’s just that time again when the fist of the mob has to come crashing down.
I’m also expected to define myself according to their methods, which means that if they treat my writings as instructions and nothing else, there is no sense in writing, and if I stand up to anyone that’s picking on me they’ll just wait for the first opportunity when they can take this out of context and use this to cut down anything that ever goes well in my life. This means that I am simply not permitted to stand up to a society that’s targeting me, and any standing up to them can only have the effect of being used against me and further policing me and absolutely nothing else. As a living thing I find it impossible to live by this logic.
They always create every problem, and ensure to, but they also ensure to always create these double-aspects to every problem they create by which they can protect and expand the problems they create.
They always go out of their way to contradict themselves just for the purpose of excluding me from everything, and anything they’ll tell me about the society in which I live and how great it is will retain its perfect posture until the instant they turn to me and suddenly are nazi cops and go out of their way to exclude me from everything and to contradict every single thing they say just for this purpose.
It has for a long time been treated as intolerable and disastrous and deadly to them whenever I had shown any aspects of life or individuality and whenever I would express myself in any way. I have to go to extremes of self-denial just to be tolerated amongst them and be given sufficient space to merely exist. And so of course, when I began expressing myself it didn’t come easy and was quite a struggle until the compromise had finally been reached that they’ll simply completely ignore and overlook anything I say or just echo it as though a set of instructions.
When speaking of myself, they would refuse to acknowledge that there is such a thing as myself. I have to go to the same extremes to exclude them from crowding into myself that they go to in order to exclude me from everything they don’t exclude anyone else from. There is a significant difference between being stalked by very large masses, and not being stalked by very large masses. It’s like telling someone that’s opposed to rape that they cannot be permitted to penetrate society due to their double-standards: it’s not really in perspective.
And another funny double-aspect that’s created: I don’t like them. They police and target and stalk me as a society and police my thoughts and kill everything in my life by means of torture and conditioning and then lie about everything and corroborate each other and use every effect of the targeting further against me and to ensure to destroy anything that ever comes about in my life. they shun everything I do and permit nothing to go anywhere and then use this to police every detail of my life with more excess and by means of greater masses, because that’s a vulnerability that’s open for exploitation when nothing is allowed in one’s life and one is a prisoner teamed up against by a tremendous number of prison-guards who are all the same.
They always go out of their way to contradict themselves just for the purpose of excluding me from everything, and anything they’ll tell me about the society in which I live and how great it is will retain its perfect posture until the instant they turn to me and suddenly are nazi cops and go out of their way to exclude me from everything and to contradict every single thing they say just for this purpose.
It has for a long time been treated as intolerable and disastrous and deadly to them whenever I had shown any aspects of life or individuality and whenever I would express myself in any way. I have to go to extremes of self-denial just to be tolerated amongst them and be given sufficient space to merely exist. And so of course, when I began expressing myself it didn’t come easy and was quite a struggle until the compromise had finally been reached that they’ll simply completely ignore and overlook anything I say or just echo it as though a set of instructions.
When speaking of myself, they would refuse to acknowledge that there is such a thing as myself. I have to go to the same extremes to exclude them from crowding into myself that they go to in order to exclude me from everything they don’t exclude anyone else from. There is a significant difference between being stalked by very large masses, and not being stalked by very large masses. It’s like telling someone that’s opposed to rape that they cannot be permitted to penetrate society due to their double-standards: it’s not really in perspective.
And another funny double-aspect that’s created: I don’t like them. They police and target and stalk me as a society and police my thoughts and kill everything in my life by means of torture and conditioning and then lie about everything and corroborate each other and use every effect of the targeting further against me and to ensure to destroy anything that ever comes about in my life. they shun everything I do and permit nothing to go anywhere and then use this to police every detail of my life with more excess and by means of greater masses, because that’s a vulnerability that’s open for exploitation when nothing is allowed in one’s life and one is a prisoner teamed up against by a tremendous number of prison-guards who are all the same.
The Mental Health System
It’s difficult to deal with the mental health system in any serious terms because it was such a farce of arbitrary law when I was involuntarily hospitalized, and it's difficult to address it as though it wasn't precisely intended for malevolent purposes.
Mostly, it has been used to police me afterwards, because I always know that it’s there, and that as long as it’s there and the society around me isn’t becoming any less fascist, and isn’t changing its imperative to target me, there isn’t really anything to stop them from putting me back there. There is no legislation that cannot be broken, as I’ve learned, not that this legislation even needs to be broken, there isn’t anyone that won’t turn against me when required to, and there isn’t anyone that will allow conscience or sanity to interfere when orders are given, not that conscience or sanity will even arise in any way at any time during the process.
I’ve been left for dead and am kept in isolation. Whenever encountering them they don’t make it very reasonable for a living and thinking being to exist in their presence. Legally I’m allowed to go outside whenever I want, but there is an understood relationship between me and the collective that I won’t be able to avoid personalized targeting if I do. And the longer I’m left like this, the more understood becomes this relationship and the more severely it is treated whenever I do. Anywhere I could go they are all the same anyways and are all members of the team against me, so there isn’t really anywhere to go.
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Moreover, now seems to be that time when doors lose their ability to open, while retaining their ability to close. When it’s a certain time in the cycle, it’s just that time in the cycle, and it can’t change without the next time in the cycle replacing it. I was hoping to make a living by making art, but if I’m being shunned, it means that I will keep being shunned, and this just cannot change, and no one will do anything different if this is what’s designated to be done. That’s just the way it is, and anyone I address about this will just make excuses for those shunning me and find some way to use this against me. That door is just not open for me, and it does not seem that this society has any interest in doing anything other than leaving me for dead or treating me like a criminal or a mental patient. This has not been made explicit to me, I’ve just been left for dead and have noticed certain things.
There isn’t much to be said about the mental health system. It’s just encapsulated stupidity. It’s when force is employed in the service of stupidity under arbitrary law, and one that thinks unconventionally is systematically and forcefully reduced to the banality of those with force under some bullshit justification, while those with force also have large numbers. One can be involuntarily confined without committing a crime, at the discretion of some cops and some doctors and perhaps some acts of intervention by the community. One can lose one’s right to make decisions for themselves, because someone else has decided that their right to make decisions for themselves will now be replaced by someone else making decisions for them. All the things one is free to hate when able to be critical of society, will now be used to tyrannize over the someone by the enforcing zombies. But that’s not such a drastic change from the life I’m living now.
It’s difficult to deal with the mental health system in any serious terms because it was such a farce of arbitrary law when I was involuntarily hospitalized, and it's difficult to address it as though it wasn't precisely intended for malevolent purposes.
Mostly, it has been used to police me afterwards, because I always know that it’s there, and that as long as it’s there and the society around me isn’t becoming any less fascist, and isn’t changing its imperative to target me, there isn’t really anything to stop them from putting me back there. There is no legislation that cannot be broken, as I’ve learned, not that this legislation even needs to be broken, there isn’t anyone that won’t turn against me when required to, and there isn’t anyone that will allow conscience or sanity to interfere when orders are given, not that conscience or sanity will even arise in any way at any time during the process.
I’ve been left for dead and am kept in isolation. Whenever encountering them they don’t make it very reasonable for a living and thinking being to exist in their presence. Legally I’m allowed to go outside whenever I want, but there is an understood relationship between me and the collective that I won’t be able to avoid personalized targeting if I do. And the longer I’m left like this, the more understood becomes this relationship and the more severely it is treated whenever I do. Anywhere I could go they are all the same anyways and are all members of the team against me, so there isn’t really anywhere to go.
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Moreover, now seems to be that time when doors lose their ability to open, while retaining their ability to close. When it’s a certain time in the cycle, it’s just that time in the cycle, and it can’t change without the next time in the cycle replacing it. I was hoping to make a living by making art, but if I’m being shunned, it means that I will keep being shunned, and this just cannot change, and no one will do anything different if this is what’s designated to be done. That’s just the way it is, and anyone I address about this will just make excuses for those shunning me and find some way to use this against me. That door is just not open for me, and it does not seem that this society has any interest in doing anything other than leaving me for dead or treating me like a criminal or a mental patient. This has not been made explicit to me, I’ve just been left for dead and have noticed certain things.
There isn’t much to be said about the mental health system. It’s just encapsulated stupidity. It’s when force is employed in the service of stupidity under arbitrary law, and one that thinks unconventionally is systematically and forcefully reduced to the banality of those with force under some bullshit justification, while those with force also have large numbers. One can be involuntarily confined without committing a crime, at the discretion of some cops and some doctors and perhaps some acts of intervention by the community. One can lose one’s right to make decisions for themselves, because someone else has decided that their right to make decisions for themselves will now be replaced by someone else making decisions for them. All the things one is free to hate when able to be critical of society, will now be used to tyrannize over the someone by the enforcing zombies. But that’s not such a drastic change from the life I’m living now.
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