They always create every problem, and ensure to, but they also ensure to always create these double-aspects to every problem they create by which they can protect and expand the problems they create.
They always go out of their way to contradict themselves just for the purpose of excluding me from everything, and anything they’ll tell me about the society in which I live and how great it is will retain its perfect posture until the instant they turn to me and suddenly are nazi cops and go out of their way to exclude me from everything and to contradict every single thing they say just for this purpose.
It has for a long time been treated as intolerable and disastrous and deadly to them whenever I had shown any aspects of life or individuality and whenever I would express myself in any way. I have to go to extremes of self-denial just to be tolerated amongst them and be given sufficient space to merely exist. And so of course, when I began expressing myself it didn’t come easy and was quite a struggle until the compromise had finally been reached that they’ll simply completely ignore and overlook anything I say or just echo it as though a set of instructions.
When speaking of myself, they would refuse to acknowledge that there is such a thing as myself. I have to go to the same extremes to exclude them from crowding into myself that they go to in order to exclude me from everything they don’t exclude anyone else from. There is a significant difference between being stalked by very large masses, and not being stalked by very large masses. It’s like telling someone that’s opposed to rape that they cannot be permitted to penetrate society due to their double-standards: it’s not really in perspective.
And another funny double-aspect that’s created: I don’t like them. They police and target and stalk me as a society and police my thoughts and kill everything in my life by means of torture and conditioning and then lie about everything and corroborate each other and use every effect of the targeting further against me and to ensure to destroy anything that ever comes about in my life. they shun everything I do and permit nothing to go anywhere and then use this to police every detail of my life with more excess and by means of greater masses, because that’s a vulnerability that’s open for exploitation when nothing is allowed in one’s life and one is a prisoner teamed up against by a tremendous number of prison-guards who are all the same.