The Mental Health System

It’s difficult to deal with the mental health system in any serious terms because it was such a farce of arbitrary law when I was involuntarily hospitalized, and it's difficult to address it as though it wasn't precisely intended for malevolent purposes.
Mostly, it has been used to police me afterwards, because I always know that it’s there, and that as long as it’s there and the society around me isn’t becoming any less fascist, and isn’t changing its imperative to target me, there isn’t really anything to stop them from putting me back there. There is no legislation that cannot be broken, as I’ve learned, not that this legislation even needs to be broken, there isn’t anyone that won’t turn against me when required to, and there isn’t anyone that will allow conscience or sanity to interfere when orders are given, not that conscience or sanity will even arise in any way at any time during the process.
I’ve been left for dead and am kept in isolation. Whenever encountering them they don’t make it very reasonable for a living and thinking being to exist in their presence. Legally I’m allowed to go outside whenever I want, but there is an understood relationship between me and the collective that I won’t be able to avoid personalized targeting if I do. And the longer I’m left like this, the more understood becomes this relationship and the more severely it is treated whenever I do. Anywhere I could go they are all the same anyways and are all members of the team against me, so there isn’t really anywhere to go.
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Moreover, now seems to be that time when doors lose their ability to open, while retaining their ability to close. When it’s a certain time in the cycle, it’s just that time in the cycle, and it can’t change without the next time in the cycle replacing it. I was hoping to make a living by making art, but if I’m being shunned, it means that I will keep being shunned, and this just cannot change, and no one will do anything different if this is what’s designated to be done. That’s just the way it is, and anyone I address about this will just make excuses for those shunning me and find some way to use this against me. That door is just not open for me, and it does not seem that this society has any interest in doing anything other than leaving me for dead or treating me like a criminal or a mental patient. This has not been made explicit to me, I’ve just been left for dead and have noticed certain things.
There isn’t much to be said about the mental health system. It’s just encapsulated stupidity. It’s when force is employed in the service of stupidity under arbitrary law, and one that thinks unconventionally is systematically and forcefully reduced to the banality of those with force under some bullshit justification, while those with force also have large numbers. One can be involuntarily confined without committing a crime, at the discretion of some cops and some doctors and perhaps some acts of intervention by the community. One can lose one’s right to make decisions for themselves, because someone else has decided that their right to make decisions for themselves will now be replaced by someone else making decisions for them. All the things one is free to hate when able to be critical of society, will now be used to tyrannize over the someone by the enforcing zombies. But that’s not such a drastic change from the life I’m living now.