I've almost started feeling comfortable using my eyes again, but the leeches are taking care of that. I thought maybe all they wanted was to take away my freedom of speech and my freedom to defend myself against attacks on the street, and then they'd just invade my privacy and monitor my life in a less coercive way. it seems I only got that impression because I hadn't left my house for a while. when things get very bad, they will not be there for you. but I already knew that. but they are very eager to remind me of that at every opportunity. I once used to wonder what it would be like to live in a place where everyone is just a piece of shit. they torment you, and then they even pretend to be mad at you. if there was actually a way of making them unhappy, there would be absolutely nothing more important than making them unhappy. but no, they don't feel anything. and yet I hope they die.